Getting Past Wanting and Worrying

Recently I caught a segment on 60 Minutes about ateenage daughters. There were laundry baskets full
group of nomadic people who live in the islands offof clothes everywhere. Those girls have so much
the coast of Thailand and Burma who are called theclothing that they probably can't find half of it. Does
Moken or the sea gypsies of the Andaman Sea.it make them more peaceful, happy, or contented
Apparently, because of their intimate knowledge ofinside? I doubt it. Instead, I could feel the energy
the sea, the Moken people were able to survive thedrain of being confronted with this clothing chaos. I'm
Asian Tsunami of December 2004 when so manysure I noticed it because it's not my house or my
others in the area perished. This fact is interesting inmess, so it's easier for me to see it since I'm not as
and of itself, but what really caught my attentionused to it. And it's not like my home is that much
was the following excerpt:better. Sometimes I look at the accumulation of stuff
The Moken don't know how old they are. Ivanoffon my kitchen counters after a week of not paying
says this is because, "Time is not the same conceptattention and say "What is all this crap?" and "Why
as we have. You can't say for instance, 'When.' Itdo I have so much stuff?" Even though I don't see
doesn't exist in Moken language."myself as an avid consumer, I still accumulate too
And Ivanoff says "when" is not the only wordmuch stuff.
missing from the Moken language. "Want" is another.On the other hand, I feel fortunate in that I rarely
"Yes, you use it very often," says Ivanoff. "Takesuffer from the disease of wanting. I am grateful for
that out of your language and you see how oftenall that I have and I'm content with it. I can't tell you
you use it. 'I want this, I want that.'"the last time I craved something - not even a piece
There is also no word for "take." "You takeof chocolate much less a new car. When my current
something," says Ivanoff. "You give or you take. Youcar no longer works well, then I will look into getting
don't want."a new one, but until then I don't have a strong desire
The fact is, the Moken want very little. What theyfor a different or fancier car.
don't want is to accumulate anything. Baggage is notInstead, I have often suffered from worries. In the
good for a nomadic people. It ties you down. Theypast, I have been a queen of the "what if" game:
have no notion and no desire for wealth.what if I can't pay the bills next month? what if I
...don't get health insurance? what if I don't make
But the Moken do have problems. The Burmese haveenough pasta salad for the party? what if I don't
turned some of their islands into military bases. Andfinish my work project on time? what if? what if?
the Thais are having them make trinkets for tourists,what if? On and on the list could go. These thoughts
a trend that could ultimately threaten their way ofused to surface most often when I turned out the
life far more than any number of tsunamis.lights at night, but they could be a constant refrain
But the Moken don't seem terribly worried by all this.during the day also.
Perhaps that's because "worry" is just one more ofI have had to teach myself to turn off the worries.
those words that don't exist in their language.Like wants, they are just thoughts made up by my
They don't have the words for want or worry inmind that I start to believe in. A worry is suffering
their language. I found it intriguing that this is a cultureemotional turmoil and anxiety because of something
of people who do not define themselves by theirthat hasn't happened yet and might not happen. How
wants, their worries, or what they have accumulated.messed up is that! A worry is a negative emotional
And from the short clip that I saw of them, theyfeeling based on a prediction of the worst case
seemed contented enough.scenario for the future, not something that is
Here in our western society, we do tend to definehappening now.
ourselves by our wants, our worries, and the stashWe are a culture obsessed with worrying, which
of stuff we own. And we also tend to suffer from acauses us undue stress and unhappiness. I've learned
lack of peace and happiness in our lives. I know I'mthat for me, the true cure for worry is bringing my
not the first person to think that these things mightfocus into the present rather than getting upset
be related.about what might or might not happen in the future.
Wants and worries are just ideas made up by ourOne of the cures for my "what if" syndrome is a
minds. They are thoughts that surface in our mindstrick I took from Susan Jeffer's book Feel the Fear
that we grab hold of and believe are true. And whenand Do It Anyway. When my mind starts with "what
we believe they are true, then we become attachedif I can't pay the bills next month?" I just tell myself
to them and suffer if things don't work out exactly"I'll handle it when and if it actually occurs." Until then,
as we believe that they should. (I don't considerI do what I can in the present moment to bring in
necessities such as food, clothing and shelter to bemore income or cut my expenses, but I do not get
the kind of wants I'm talking about, I see thoseupset about something that might not happen. If I
more as needs.)get to next month and I really don't have the
I'll sacrifice someone dear to me as an example. Lastmoney, then I'll have to call whoever I can't pay and
winter this person wanted to buy a Harley-Davidsonwork it out with them, or I'll have to borrow a little
motorcycle that his mother was selling. He wanted itmoney, whatever it takes when it actually happens. I
badly. He visualized owning it and took a picture ofdon't mean to imply that I sit around on my backside
himself sitting on it. But when the time came to payand do nothing if I anticipate not being able to pay
up, he didn't have the cash available without takingnext month's bills. I do some extra work or try to
out a loan which he decided against. I know he wasfigure out another way to bring in more income--I
disappointed, and for a few days he was in a reallytake action now. What I refuse to do anymore is
bad mood (suffered emotionally) before he finally letmake myself sick or lose sleep about what might
it go from his emotions and moved on. But here's thehappen 30 days from now.
clincher--last week he told me he didn't miss havingWant and worry and the habit of accumulating stuff
the motorcycle at all and he was glad he didn't endstarts early in our society. My youngest son is getting
up buying it. Imagine that...close to four years old, and "I want" is a definite part
My take on this is that when he was wanting theof his vocabulary. Many times I have heard "I want a
motorcycle last winter, he believed that it wouldnew (toy) truck" when he already has a dozen toy
somehow make him happier or more fulfilled, but hetrucks. It's almost as if having fuels more wanting.
realized later that he was not less happy by notAnd my older son worries about what next year will
having the motorcycle. I asked him to think aboutbe like at school since some of his friends have left.
what might mean to him, especially since he nowHe's anticipating that it will be miserable, hence the
talks about wanting a classic car.worry. I tell him not to assume that he knows how
So here's the secret: We want things that we thinknext year will go, not to predict the worst case
will make us happy and content. Our culture tells usscenario for the future. Maybe he'll have the
that things will make us happy, and it's hard to denyopportunity to make new friends.
the pervasive influence of this lie. But happiness andImagine if want and worry didn't exist in our lives.
peace in our lives do not come from getting theImagine if we didn't let those unruly thoughts of
things we think we want, they come fromcraving and negative anticipation consume our minds.
developing an inner calmness that is free fromWould we suffer less from depression, anxiety, fear,
wanting. And wanting just makes us feel desperate,low self-esteem, and even anger? I think so. Imagine
stressed and unfulfilled.if as a society in general we could diminish our
How do you get rid of the desperation of wanting?collective wanting and worrying. Would we cause less
Question it. Ask yourself why you want something.destruction to our environment? Would we be a
Do you need it? What will it bring to your life? Whatmore peaceful and progressive nation?
will be different about your life if you have it? Will itMaybe having a burning desire for something or even
make you kinder, more peaceful, or more content?some person in your life works for you. Maybe
I'm not saying never get something you desire orworrying gives you some sense of control. But I
that you think will entertain you. Just questionhave found that having a burning desire makes me
yourself to make sure you are not pinning yourfeel a little desperate and obsessed, and worry just
happiness on a thing, because happiness comes fromrobs me of sleep rather than helping me accomplish
your inner being not something outside you.anything. If you find that you feel desperate,
Wanting also tends to lead to an accumulation ofunhappy or unfulfilled, it might be worthwhile to
stuff in our lives that we just don't need and thatconsider whether wanting and worrying are stealing
drains our energy without us even being aware of it.your inner peace.
I visited a friend the other day who has two